Oh my wishes pls come true.

All I want for Xmas & Xmas eve:

1) BlackBerry Bold 9700.
2) MacBook Pro 13-inch.
3) A new drum set.
4) A visit to Old Trafford.
5) The classic Chanel bag. (haa yea rite)

Dah la tu.
heeee :D

We are only Human

Some things are beyond planning.
And life doesn't always turn out as planned.
You don't plan for a broken heart.
You don't plan for an autistic child.
You don't plan for spinsterhood.
You don't plan for a lump in your breast.

You plan to be young forever.
You plan to climb the corporate ladder.
You plan to be rich and powerful.
You plan to be acclaimed and successful.
You plan to conquer the universe.
You plan to fall in love - and be loved forever.

You don't plan to be sad.
You don't plan to be hurt.
You don't plan to be broke.
You don't plan to be betrayed.
You don't plan to be alone in this world.
You plan to be happy.
You don't plan to be shattered .

Sometimes if you work hard enough, you can get what you want. But MOST
times, what you want and what you get are two different things.

Sometimes, Allah breaks our spirit to save our soul.
Sometimes, He breaks our heart to make us whole.
Sometimes, He allows pain so we can be stronger.
Sometimes, Allah sends us failure so we can be humble.
Sometimes, He allows illness so we can take better care of ourselves.
And sometimes, Allah takes everything away from us so we can learn the
value of everything He gave us

Make plans, but understand that we live by Allah's grace.

We are ordinary after all...

im in love with you
This ain't the honeymoon
Past the infatuation phase
Right in the thick of love
At times we get sick of love
It seems like we argue everyday

I know i misbehaved
And you made your mistakes
And we both still got room left to grow
And though love sometimes hurts
I still put you first
And we'll make this thing work
But I think we should take it slow

We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
Cuz we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow
This time we'll take it slow
This time we'll take it slow

This ain't a movie no
No fairy tale conclusion
It gets more confusing everyday
Sometimes it's heaven sent
Then we head back to hell again
We kiss then we make up on the way

I hang up you call
We rise and we fall
And we feel like just walking away
As our love advances
We take second chances
Though it's not a fantasy
I Still want you to stay

We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
Cuz we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow
This time we'll take it slow
This time we'll take it slow


Take it slow
Maybe we'll live and learn
Maybe we'll crash and burn
Maybe you'll stay, maybe you'll leave,
maybe you'll return
Maybe another fight
Maybe we won't survive
But maybe we'll grow
We never know baby you and I

At this hour:11.29am

I dont want to be at the state where I'm scared to love.
That's the worst thing that could happen.

crazier

I'd never gone with the wind
Just let it flow
Let it take me where it wants to go to
You open the door
There's so much more
I've never seen it before
I was trying to fly
But I couldn't find wings
But you came along and you changed everything

You lift my feet off the ground
You spin me around
You make me crazier, crazier
Feels like I'm falling and I am lost in your eyes
You make me crazier, crazier, crazier

I've watched from a distance as you made life your own
Every sky was your own kind of blue
And I wanted to know how that would feel
And you made it so real
You showed me something that I couldn't see
You opened my eyes
And you made me believe


Baby you showed me what living is for
I don't wanna hide anymore


You lift my feet off the ground
You spin me around
You make me crazier, crazier
Feels like I'm fallin' and I am lost in your eyes
You make me crazier, crazier, crazier
Crazier, crazier, crazier

A friend once said: "One of the challenges in life is to find someone who knows all your flaws, differences and mistakes, and still love you with everything they've got."

It aint easy. Especially when you still believe everyone is hopelessly romantic and look at it like you do. Is it just me? How is it suppose to be? I talked too much. At times I wish I dont need words to let them all out. Wish I have some kind of super power to understand and to know all...

Maybe I should stop...

It's not a perfect song but it explains part of sometimes

I looked away
Then I look back at you
You try to say
The things that you can't undo
If I had my way
I'd never get over you
Today's the day
I pray that we make it through

Make it through the fall
Make it through it all

And I don't wanna fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don't want to talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
I don't want to talk about it
Cuz I'm in Love With you

You're the only one,
I'd be with till the end
When I come undone
You bring me back again
Back under the stars
Back into your arms


Wanna know who you are
Wanna know where to start
I wanna know what this means

Wanna know how you feel
Wanna know what is real
I wanna know everything, everything


I'm in love with you
Cuz i'm in love with you
I'm in love with you
I'm in love with you

Fallin' for You by Colbie Caillat

I don’t know but
I think I maybe
Fallin’ for you
Dropping so quickly
Maybe I should
Keep this to myself
Waiting ’til I
Know you better

I am trying
Not to tell you
But I want to
I’m scared of what you’ll say
So I’m hiding what I’m feeling
But I’m tired of
Holding this inside my head

I’ve been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’ve been waiting all my life
and now I found ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’m fallin’ for you

As I’m standing here
And you hold my hand
Pull me towards you
And we start to dance
All around us
I see nobody
Here in silence
It’s just you and me

I’m trying
Not to tell you
But I want to
I’m scared of what you’ll say
So I’m hiding what I’m feeling
But I’m tired of
Holding this inside my head

I’ve been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’ve been waiting all my life
and now I found ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’m fallin’ for you

Oh I just can’t take it
My heart is racing
The emotions keep spinning out

I’ve been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’ve been waiting all my life
and now I found ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’m fallin’ for you

I can’t stop thinking about it
I want you all around me
And now I just can’t hide it
I think I’m fallin’ for you (x2)

I’m fallin’ for you

Ooohhh
Oh no no
Oooooohhh
Oh I’m fallin’ for you

Bang Bang

When I sniff that perfume,

When "I'll be" is playing on my iTunes,

When I walk pass by that street,

When I hug that little teddy,

When I pass by that cafe,

When I think about Dominos cheesy garlic bread,

When I listen to all your fav songs (at least used to be),

When I play Minesweeper flags,

When I watch football,

When I laugh,

or when I cry,

When Im happy,

or sad,

When at times I feel so vulnerable and weak,

When I look at myself in the mirror,

When everything is falling apart,

I go right back to you.

Speechless

Some things there's no words can explain how it feels or how it works,

Sometimes you just have to feel it.

Now I understand when they say, "you just know it".

I think I am at that point, at the point where I just feel it.

Not knowing it yet for certain, but, I feel it. I understand.

I am at a better place. =)

Im very glad, lucky indeed.

It's a dog eat dog world out there

Never I know species of the same kind can be so cruel and inhumane.

Just because you have the power and all the money in the world, it still doesn't change the fact that at the end of the day you are a human and a God's slave just like the rest of us.

Even a 21 year old like me understand the basic concept of a recession, i don't need an arrogant old fart like you to tell me that you did that all in the name of ECONOMY!

Regardless how harsh the reality is, the world doesn't need another pest like you to make it all real and worst for people like me who are still in the "bubble"!

You just full of crap, insensitive,selfish rich man!

I don't know. Part of me want to be the better person, and just learn from it. But now, at this point in time, I can't help it.

When you hurt a part of me, you will pay for it.

I wish karma will bite you back,bite you sooo hard till you regret every single decision you made.

Remember, you are old, you are living your life for your future generation. What comes around goes around.

If it's not you now who suffers, think about your children and your grandchildren.

Go to hell with your money and stupid resorts!

I hate you! All of you!

Inilah melayu tak sedar diri. Banyak harta, ada kuasa, lupa daratan! Tak semestinya dah tua wiser. Ada je yg bongok! Tak berperikemanusiaan!

Stick with You

To all my friends out there this song is for you peeps! :D



bye
see ya
one thing for sure "dont wanna be ya"
xoxo

Just about to live the dream.

Good news, I've been accepted as an exchange student at The University of Manchester in their Semester 1 '09. *yay!* But (there's always one *sigh*) unfortunately there are a few cons that I have to consider. Okay, here they are:

PROS :
1) Hell yeah football! Theater of Dreams awaits.
2) It's a good Uni.
3) I've never been to Manchester yet. Maybe it's nothing much compared to London but let me remind you, Theater of Dreams awaits.
4) It would be nice to experience a different teaching and learning environment right?
5) I'll get to travel around the UK and Europe.
6) I would get the opportunity to give a good account of myself as a student from UQ (yeah right laili)

CONS (boooo) :
1) Unfortunately I can't do all my remaining courses in Manchester, apparently some of them are not equivalent to UQ courses.
2) And coz of that, I'm gonna have to come back here to finish up the last 2 courses.
3) To make things worst, those 2 remaining courses are only offered during the 2nd semester here in UQ.
4) Which means.... I'm gonna have to extend my graduation to the end of 2010 instead of the end of this year!
5) Apparently there are slight changes in the courses offered for '09/'10 year. So I might have to change some of the courses I planned to take there.

It's like mother nature itself is not letting me go!
Help meh! ( If you're in my situation, what would you do?) grrr

Monday ?!

haiyo!Midsem this sat! Stress ooo... Four freaking topics in four days?! hrrmmm...I guess not much time.Stop facebooking, msning and wtv! Cant think of anything at the moment. It's freaking cold now and I can't stop eating.(babs!)
Ok time to go now.Since there's nothing much to write...

bye bye
take care
see ya "one thing for sure dont wanna be ya"
xoxo

There goes my weekend...

Guess what peeps?! I joined the QSC thingy and I actually won something. I won gold medal for netball(very funny,I know) Oh well, it was more of my teammates efforts. without them,I would have lost. (I totally suck at sports! seriously) I would like to thank J,Z,A,D,B & S for everything. It was fun but I guess that will be the first and the last time for me to be part of it. Prefer staying outside the court/field. Just let me cheer for you peeps. I'm better at that because it's more relaxing and fun thing to do. Overall we did okay .(hehehe...=D) much better than being the last.(wink,wink). Ok enough said here. Got to get going peeps because I have a life!(lol)

bye
see ya
one thing for sure dont wanna be ya!
take care
xoxo

Love & Hate

LOVE
There's lot of things to love in my world. My family, friends, my bfie(which I dont need to tell), bags, shoes, clothes and... oh gosh! Can't list them all. I obviously don't do sports but I love to dance. Dancing is what I like the most. When I dance, I can be who ever I want. I love to be me although I can be super annoying and bitchie at times. I have to agree that I am abit pickie in terms of everything. I do love to make new friends but I'm just not good at it. People tend to think I'm stuck-up(pssstt...I get that all the time) =p So nothing to be emo at. Well being me is not easy, Sometimes I'm just too tired of just being me.(I bet you dont get me). And I still don't know why. I guess only my family and friends that knows me well can "tahan" me. I can be the pain in the ass... hehehe Oh well, that's ME!
Thanks to these peeps and I love you peeps the most:- P,M,A,T,D,A,J,L,Z,E,A,G,Z,N,M,N,L,S,R,I,J,I, F& S.

HATE
Hate,hate, hate... Let me think?! I hate trying new things because I'm just too scared of failing. That's the main reason why I always stick to what I'm used to. I 100% hate cheater, sweet-talker, playboy, faker and can't list them all at one go.I hate reptiles and not really a big fan of animals. It's hard for me to hate people but once I hate you, that's it!(jk as long as you apologize, I'm alrite) hrrmmm... There's not much to hate actually. As long I dont get in people's way and vice versa, I'm totally fine!!!

Bye and I'm out of here.
take care
see ya and one thing for sure don't wanna be ya!
xoxo

Got it all wrong

I thought it was the last search. Thought it felt right. I guess at the end of the day it comes to me.. Maybe, its just me. Desperately wanted and hoping to find the one who adores me, who wants to be part of my life as much as I want to be part of theirs. But the thing I tend to forget that, not everyone is like me. Or is it just karma getitng back at me? I Pushed away those who genuinely wants to be here, and now in return, the one I genuinely dont want to let go will be taken away from me?

But then again, It is not wrong to know what u want. I got carried away that I accepted the unacceptable, ignore the obvious signs of the contrast. Somehow, deep down I'm scared. Scared of what might have been, scared that I might dissapoint the hopes of others. Scared of what others might think of me.

What went wrong? Maybe its just not meant to be. I can't be in it alone. .I see it.. I think I know what's next...But im just scared to say it...n I Think so do u...

Something to figure out

You thought you have everything planned and going well on track. But the truth is, I don't know what I know anymore. I always thought If I have everything figured out, then everything will be fine. But then again, they were all myths that I made myself to believe. I think for once, I have to let time and fate decide the course of love and life. Go with the flow, let things happen. Without much force and pressure. For once, live it as it is. Feel it as it touches you. Savour it as it happens.

And yes, We dont know what is in for us in the future. I guess now I know what you were trying to tell me. I'm not perfect nor the one. I'm slowly to understand, pretending that things are the way I want it to be when they are clearly not, wont help.

Im still trying to learn and understand all these. Me, you, us... It's not a bad thing. I guess, it's just another part of my "self-discovery" thing to do. At this age, it's so naive of me to think that I have everything figured out, certain about everything. When the fact is, I know somehow deep inside of me, I'm still lost, still ignoring some obvious signs which point to my insecurities and uncertainties.

Something to figure out....

Life in technicolor ba

I did what I had to do. Or else I'll be lying to him and to myself.
I gave my solid reasons, and if my heart's just not in it, why should I carry on?
It hurts hearing his bitter words, but Im staying strong and wont let 'em bring me down.
At least now I know I made the right decision.
Time is so short and Im pretty sure there must be something more for me out there.
Im keeping my head up high *cheers everyone*
:D