Its stuck in my head.

Nice song..peaceful and calm.
Enjoy it guys!

No place like home~

Happy Birthday Abah <3




Oh goooddd, cant wait to go back for raya :DD

Wrong or Right

#This post in a way, inspried by Laili's post. =P #

You know how we always say as we grow up we somhow know the difference between the rights and the wrongs? Well, If you think about it again, we would never know EXACTLY what is wrong and what is right. People might think they know you and know why you do certain things certain way, but the truth is they have no idea how you are doing or feel. Its not wrong to be vulnerable at times, to let your guards down and share your emotions. Being an emotional and expressive person myself, most of the time, When I pour my heart out whenever im feeling down..its really comforting... I guess, that's why God created Eve for Adam, so that he wont be all alone in this world. I'm glad that I'm not alone. Thankful that I have many wonderful souls in my life that I can rely on when the times get rough. =)

Hey, eventhough we would never know or have the perfect answers to everything in life, but the least we can do is be as wise as possible through this journey of life. We can never hide from feeling guilty, betrayed, loved...as all those after all are part of being human...part of life. Eventually we will get through it...I'm sure we will...

It's a random post, read it if u must.

I’ve come to realize that what you do, what you decide, what you believe and desire, are your own choices. You choose to love, hate, care, stay, leave etc. You strive to achieve for what is significant to you. As for me, I choose to be wise and well-read. I choose to lead a healthy life. I choose to act responsibly. I choose to be childish but sane at the same time. You know what I mean? But of coz at some point I might stumble, coz it’s possible for anyone to be vulnerable given any situation. However, these experiences are what guiding me through this pretty hectic journey, or should I say a tough one? Nah..I believe it is rather cruel. It’s filled with artificial heartless shallow-minded human beings. So how could it not be cruel huh? It is utterly flawed! There will always be people who are self-centred, ungrateful and just plain mean.

So recently, someone asked me, “How are you?” My answer was “I’m doing fine”. Actually I meant to say to you that I’m doing soooo fine, great in fact. I meant to tell you to stop asking me how I am doing coz I’m sick of it. You know when you always say you didn’t mean to hurt me and you regret yadayadayada…just stop it. Whatever you did was your choice and there’s nothing that you can do that could possibly erase all of it. I can’t and won’t be that person you knew few years ago. People are constantly changing, but it seems like you aren’t. I refused to move on at first, but now I’m completely over it. My life has been more carefree, stress-free, and absolutely tearless (is that even a word?). Anyway, this change has added more colours into my life, and I wish for it to stay that way. You already caused too much mess, it couldn’t get any worst than that, what I went through. You my dear had given me extra strength and courage to be where I am now.

I choose to be alone coz trusting someone new isn’t easy. Interest is there, but I’ll pass for now. Until I am ready to get involve again, I guess, then, I’ll have a different perspective (+ve one I hope) on relationships. But it doesn’t mean that I’m losing faith in love. After all love will always be the guiding force in our lives. It makes the world go round ain’t it? Hahaha...you love birds out there should know how it feels.

Well, my 2^nd para was actually my whole point of this post. I got carried away. It’s mainly about choices. Just to say that you chose to leave, so pls don’t look back. I don’t want you to.

I've never written things like this before, so there you go, this is as personal as I could get.

Addicted to you!

Well, for the past week, have been keeping up with the actions in the Water Cube in Beijing! Damn, Michael Phelps is just sooo darn fine! =P Winning 8 Golds in an Olympic beating Spitz's 36 years old record for most gold medals won in a single olympic, nothing can be more sexier than that! =) haih...Yup people, he is my crush for the season... =P (Still love you sayang! always! huhuhu) You guys should have watched him doing the thing he does best-making waves in the pool. He is just amazing... Looking forward to see more of him in the future! Also not forgetting, Well done to Grant Hackett too..Eventhough he didnt win the Gold to set the record to be the only swimmer to win the 1500m event 3 times in a row in olympic games, you are still the greatest long distance swimmer Hackett! Good job!

Mmmm...other than Olympics, same old thing for me...Uni and stuff, can't wait to go back for summer though...this long distance relationship thing kills me! Hate being away from him.. but hey, I know this is all worth it.. =) Missing him every single day..

Love you... =)

16th August

Happy 18th Birthday Amir~!

My brother has grown so big...

Long awaited

Now there's something else to look forward to, besides this weekend. TV series! Been waiting for Gossip Girl (s2), One Tree Hill (s6) and Grey's Anatomy(s5). Quick recaps of last episodes:

Gossip Girl: Basically Upper East Side's social event of the year was Lily and Bart's wedding. But most of all, with the exit of Georgina Sparks (hopefully), will Serena and Dan be able to save their relationship? Or will they fall back for their former "lover". On the other hand, after finally confessed their love for one another, Chuck realized that he may not wanna give up his usual lifestyle, leaving Blair waiting for him by his helicopter.

One Tree Hill: Simple, who did Lucas called? Not Lindsey I hope!

Grey's: Derek looked for Meredith everywhere and then found her on his patch of land, with candles outlined where their house will be. Then they made up. Awww..


Yes yes people be patient! Gossip Girl and OTH will be out on the 1st of Sept while Grey's will be on the 25th Sept. Can't wait to watch those privileged prep school teens on Manhattan's Upper East Side, Nathan Scott, and the hot doctors of Seattle Grace Hospital :D

What's everything to you?

Everyday, you'll come across different thoughts, different behaviours, different personalities, different potentials..etc... Never a day that you just go, BLANK. For me,that is. The slightest gesture or ideas that people have can really capture my interest, making me wonder how or why he/she behaves such way, or how does he/she know soo much about the world.

Intellectual. A word/trait which I inspire to have since the first time I got to know its meaning. Being away from home and having the opportunity to study overseas, I am able to experience being surrounded by intellectual individuals who seems to know EVERYTHING, and have opinions on matters which we average Joes (that includes me) care less to think about e.g global issues- global warming, food scarcities etc. I really envy those people who can quote famous economist about a theory or tell the whole class about the facts of a particular economic crisis. Sometimes I wonder, is that what it takes to be a future economist? You have to know everything about the world? Do I have what it takes? I know I love the course, and thank God I'm studying economics rather than studying human jaw and teeth... (initially I wanted to study dentistry..=P )...

*sigh*

Today, someone said " Know everything about something, and know something about everything." He said, he knows everything (so into) economics, but know something (not too much,just sufficient) about everything else around him (computers, politics etc..)

Then, it hits me, What do I know everything about? and Do I know something about everything else around me? Or am I just too ignorant? I think it's time to ponder....

Chesty mucus cough

As I was lying on my bed today, with nothing to do, made me wonder how tedious my days are lately. Eat, tv, online, and sleep. Having so much of catching up to do, I cant seem to get myself together to actually start studying. Readings, questions, lots to be done, along with quizzes and exams coming soon. Haiyooh, mati la like this. I've been promising to myself to work harder this semester and to start early, but if this is my initial work, then I'm screwed.

Apart from doing nothing (what I meant by doing nothing was actually not doing my work like I'm supposed to), I've been reading story books; Jenny Downham: Before I Die, Bridget Curran: the Miracles of Mary, and Khaled Hosseini: The Kite Runner. Yes 3 books at the same time. To also kill time, the internet duh~. So as I was browsing for new and more interesting news to read, I came across this headline; Ronaldo: "I'm Joining Madrid Next Week". And this too; Ferguson: "If Ronaldo leaves, so will I". Astonishing? very indeed. That, ppl, just added up to my already gloomy day. What the heck are these ppl thinking?? I have no clue.

After a while of staring at the ceiling, finally someone called and asked if we wanted to go and send Nana to the airport. Nana went back home for good. All of us were there to witness her departure. Pretty moving when she started crying, awwww. We'll surely miss you Nana! Thanks for everything and minta maaf kalau ada salah dan silap :)

So when I got back, after watching something on tv, I went straight to bed. Hoping that I would get some sleep. But when I turned right facing the wall, there was him standing tall dribbling the ball. So, the news I read earlier today, came rushing back and kept me awake. Me being resentful about this whole thing, I jumped out of bed, to my study table, and here I am writing this post, hoping that it would, in any way, ease my frustration. Well it helped a bit. But still?! *sigh*
Then I closed all my tabs, except for this, with nothing more to write, Im publishing it. Hope you'll enjoy it as Im not.