Oh my wishes pls come true.

All I want for Xmas & Xmas eve:

1) BlackBerry Bold 9700.
2) MacBook Pro 13-inch.
3) A new drum set.
4) A visit to Old Trafford.
5) The classic Chanel bag. (haa yea rite)

Dah la tu.
heeee :D

We are only Human

Some things are beyond planning.
And life doesn't always turn out as planned.
You don't plan for a broken heart.
You don't plan for an autistic child.
You don't plan for spinsterhood.
You don't plan for a lump in your breast.

You plan to be young forever.
You plan to climb the corporate ladder.
You plan to be rich and powerful.
You plan to be acclaimed and successful.
You plan to conquer the universe.
You plan to fall in love - and be loved forever.

You don't plan to be sad.
You don't plan to be hurt.
You don't plan to be broke.
You don't plan to be betrayed.
You don't plan to be alone in this world.
You plan to be happy.
You don't plan to be shattered .

Sometimes if you work hard enough, you can get what you want. But MOST
times, what you want and what you get are two different things.

Sometimes, Allah breaks our spirit to save our soul.
Sometimes, He breaks our heart to make us whole.
Sometimes, He allows pain so we can be stronger.
Sometimes, Allah sends us failure so we can be humble.
Sometimes, He allows illness so we can take better care of ourselves.
And sometimes, Allah takes everything away from us so we can learn the
value of everything He gave us

Make plans, but understand that we live by Allah's grace.

We are ordinary after all...

im in love with you
This ain't the honeymoon
Past the infatuation phase
Right in the thick of love
At times we get sick of love
It seems like we argue everyday

I know i misbehaved
And you made your mistakes
And we both still got room left to grow
And though love sometimes hurts
I still put you first
And we'll make this thing work
But I think we should take it slow

We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
Cuz we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow
This time we'll take it slow
This time we'll take it slow

This ain't a movie no
No fairy tale conclusion
It gets more confusing everyday
Sometimes it's heaven sent
Then we head back to hell again
We kiss then we make up on the way

I hang up you call
We rise and we fall
And we feel like just walking away
As our love advances
We take second chances
Though it's not a fantasy
I Still want you to stay

We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
Cuz we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow
This time we'll take it slow
This time we'll take it slow


Take it slow
Maybe we'll live and learn
Maybe we'll crash and burn
Maybe you'll stay, maybe you'll leave,
maybe you'll return
Maybe another fight
Maybe we won't survive
But maybe we'll grow
We never know baby you and I

At this hour:11.29am

I dont want to be at the state where I'm scared to love.
That's the worst thing that could happen.

crazier

I'd never gone with the wind
Just let it flow
Let it take me where it wants to go to
You open the door
There's so much more
I've never seen it before
I was trying to fly
But I couldn't find wings
But you came along and you changed everything

You lift my feet off the ground
You spin me around
You make me crazier, crazier
Feels like I'm falling and I am lost in your eyes
You make me crazier, crazier, crazier

I've watched from a distance as you made life your own
Every sky was your own kind of blue
And I wanted to know how that would feel
And you made it so real
You showed me something that I couldn't see
You opened my eyes
And you made me believe


Baby you showed me what living is for
I don't wanna hide anymore


You lift my feet off the ground
You spin me around
You make me crazier, crazier
Feels like I'm fallin' and I am lost in your eyes
You make me crazier, crazier, crazier
Crazier, crazier, crazier

A friend once said: "One of the challenges in life is to find someone who knows all your flaws, differences and mistakes, and still love you with everything they've got."

It aint easy. Especially when you still believe everyone is hopelessly romantic and look at it like you do. Is it just me? How is it suppose to be? I talked too much. At times I wish I dont need words to let them all out. Wish I have some kind of super power to understand and to know all...

Maybe I should stop...

It's not a perfect song but it explains part of sometimes

I looked away
Then I look back at you
You try to say
The things that you can't undo
If I had my way
I'd never get over you
Today's the day
I pray that we make it through

Make it through the fall
Make it through it all

And I don't wanna fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don't want to talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
I don't want to talk about it
Cuz I'm in Love With you

You're the only one,
I'd be with till the end
When I come undone
You bring me back again
Back under the stars
Back into your arms


Wanna know who you are
Wanna know where to start
I wanna know what this means

Wanna know how you feel
Wanna know what is real
I wanna know everything, everything


I'm in love with you
Cuz i'm in love with you
I'm in love with you
I'm in love with you

Fallin' for You by Colbie Caillat

I don’t know but
I think I maybe
Fallin’ for you
Dropping so quickly
Maybe I should
Keep this to myself
Waiting ’til I
Know you better

I am trying
Not to tell you
But I want to
I’m scared of what you’ll say
So I’m hiding what I’m feeling
But I’m tired of
Holding this inside my head

I’ve been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’ve been waiting all my life
and now I found ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’m fallin’ for you

As I’m standing here
And you hold my hand
Pull me towards you
And we start to dance
All around us
I see nobody
Here in silence
It’s just you and me

I’m trying
Not to tell you
But I want to
I’m scared of what you’ll say
So I’m hiding what I’m feeling
But I’m tired of
Holding this inside my head

I’ve been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’ve been waiting all my life
and now I found ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’m fallin’ for you

Oh I just can’t take it
My heart is racing
The emotions keep spinning out

I’ve been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’ve been waiting all my life
and now I found ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’m fallin’ for you

I can’t stop thinking about it
I want you all around me
And now I just can’t hide it
I think I’m fallin’ for you (x2)

I’m fallin’ for you

Ooohhh
Oh no no
Oooooohhh
Oh I’m fallin’ for you

Bang Bang

When I sniff that perfume,

When "I'll be" is playing on my iTunes,

When I walk pass by that street,

When I hug that little teddy,

When I pass by that cafe,

When I think about Dominos cheesy garlic bread,

When I listen to all your fav songs (at least used to be),

When I play Minesweeper flags,

When I watch football,

When I laugh,

or when I cry,

When Im happy,

or sad,

When at times I feel so vulnerable and weak,

When I look at myself in the mirror,

When everything is falling apart,

I go right back to you.

Speechless

Some things there's no words can explain how it feels or how it works,

Sometimes you just have to feel it.

Now I understand when they say, "you just know it".

I think I am at that point, at the point where I just feel it.

Not knowing it yet for certain, but, I feel it. I understand.

I am at a better place. =)

Im very glad, lucky indeed.

It's a dog eat dog world out there

Never I know species of the same kind can be so cruel and inhumane.

Just because you have the power and all the money in the world, it still doesn't change the fact that at the end of the day you are a human and a God's slave just like the rest of us.

Even a 21 year old like me understand the basic concept of a recession, i don't need an arrogant old fart like you to tell me that you did that all in the name of ECONOMY!

Regardless how harsh the reality is, the world doesn't need another pest like you to make it all real and worst for people like me who are still in the "bubble"!

You just full of crap, insensitive,selfish rich man!

I don't know. Part of me want to be the better person, and just learn from it. But now, at this point in time, I can't help it.

When you hurt a part of me, you will pay for it.

I wish karma will bite you back,bite you sooo hard till you regret every single decision you made.

Remember, you are old, you are living your life for your future generation. What comes around goes around.

If it's not you now who suffers, think about your children and your grandchildren.

Go to hell with your money and stupid resorts!

I hate you! All of you!

Inilah melayu tak sedar diri. Banyak harta, ada kuasa, lupa daratan! Tak semestinya dah tua wiser. Ada je yg bongok! Tak berperikemanusiaan!

Stick with You

To all my friends out there this song is for you peeps! :D



bye
see ya
one thing for sure "dont wanna be ya"
xoxo

Just about to live the dream.

Good news, I've been accepted as an exchange student at The University of Manchester in their Semester 1 '09. *yay!* But (there's always one *sigh*) unfortunately there are a few cons that I have to consider. Okay, here they are:

PROS :
1) Hell yeah football! Theater of Dreams awaits.
2) It's a good Uni.
3) I've never been to Manchester yet. Maybe it's nothing much compared to London but let me remind you, Theater of Dreams awaits.
4) It would be nice to experience a different teaching and learning environment right?
5) I'll get to travel around the UK and Europe.
6) I would get the opportunity to give a good account of myself as a student from UQ (yeah right laili)

CONS (boooo) :
1) Unfortunately I can't do all my remaining courses in Manchester, apparently some of them are not equivalent to UQ courses.
2) And coz of that, I'm gonna have to come back here to finish up the last 2 courses.
3) To make things worst, those 2 remaining courses are only offered during the 2nd semester here in UQ.
4) Which means.... I'm gonna have to extend my graduation to the end of 2010 instead of the end of this year!
5) Apparently there are slight changes in the courses offered for '09/'10 year. So I might have to change some of the courses I planned to take there.

It's like mother nature itself is not letting me go!
Help meh! ( If you're in my situation, what would you do?) grrr

Monday ?!

haiyo!Midsem this sat! Stress ooo... Four freaking topics in four days?! hrrmmm...I guess not much time.Stop facebooking, msning and wtv! Cant think of anything at the moment. It's freaking cold now and I can't stop eating.(babs!)
Ok time to go now.Since there's nothing much to write...

bye bye
take care
see ya "one thing for sure dont wanna be ya"
xoxo

There goes my weekend...

Guess what peeps?! I joined the QSC thingy and I actually won something. I won gold medal for netball(very funny,I know) Oh well, it was more of my teammates efforts. without them,I would have lost. (I totally suck at sports! seriously) I would like to thank J,Z,A,D,B & S for everything. It was fun but I guess that will be the first and the last time for me to be part of it. Prefer staying outside the court/field. Just let me cheer for you peeps. I'm better at that because it's more relaxing and fun thing to do. Overall we did okay .(hehehe...=D) much better than being the last.(wink,wink). Ok enough said here. Got to get going peeps because I have a life!(lol)

bye
see ya
one thing for sure dont wanna be ya!
take care
xoxo

Love & Hate

LOVE
There's lot of things to love in my world. My family, friends, my bfie(which I dont need to tell), bags, shoes, clothes and... oh gosh! Can't list them all. I obviously don't do sports but I love to dance. Dancing is what I like the most. When I dance, I can be who ever I want. I love to be me although I can be super annoying and bitchie at times. I have to agree that I am abit pickie in terms of everything. I do love to make new friends but I'm just not good at it. People tend to think I'm stuck-up(pssstt...I get that all the time) =p So nothing to be emo at. Well being me is not easy, Sometimes I'm just too tired of just being me.(I bet you dont get me). And I still don't know why. I guess only my family and friends that knows me well can "tahan" me. I can be the pain in the ass... hehehe Oh well, that's ME!
Thanks to these peeps and I love you peeps the most:- P,M,A,T,D,A,J,L,Z,E,A,G,Z,N,M,N,L,S,R,I,J,I, F& S.

HATE
Hate,hate, hate... Let me think?! I hate trying new things because I'm just too scared of failing. That's the main reason why I always stick to what I'm used to. I 100% hate cheater, sweet-talker, playboy, faker and can't list them all at one go.I hate reptiles and not really a big fan of animals. It's hard for me to hate people but once I hate you, that's it!(jk as long as you apologize, I'm alrite) hrrmmm... There's not much to hate actually. As long I dont get in people's way and vice versa, I'm totally fine!!!

Bye and I'm out of here.
take care
see ya and one thing for sure don't wanna be ya!
xoxo

Got it all wrong

I thought it was the last search. Thought it felt right. I guess at the end of the day it comes to me.. Maybe, its just me. Desperately wanted and hoping to find the one who adores me, who wants to be part of my life as much as I want to be part of theirs. But the thing I tend to forget that, not everyone is like me. Or is it just karma getitng back at me? I Pushed away those who genuinely wants to be here, and now in return, the one I genuinely dont want to let go will be taken away from me?

But then again, It is not wrong to know what u want. I got carried away that I accepted the unacceptable, ignore the obvious signs of the contrast. Somehow, deep down I'm scared. Scared of what might have been, scared that I might dissapoint the hopes of others. Scared of what others might think of me.

What went wrong? Maybe its just not meant to be. I can't be in it alone. .I see it.. I think I know what's next...But im just scared to say it...n I Think so do u...

Something to figure out

You thought you have everything planned and going well on track. But the truth is, I don't know what I know anymore. I always thought If I have everything figured out, then everything will be fine. But then again, they were all myths that I made myself to believe. I think for once, I have to let time and fate decide the course of love and life. Go with the flow, let things happen. Without much force and pressure. For once, live it as it is. Feel it as it touches you. Savour it as it happens.

And yes, We dont know what is in for us in the future. I guess now I know what you were trying to tell me. I'm not perfect nor the one. I'm slowly to understand, pretending that things are the way I want it to be when they are clearly not, wont help.

Im still trying to learn and understand all these. Me, you, us... It's not a bad thing. I guess, it's just another part of my "self-discovery" thing to do. At this age, it's so naive of me to think that I have everything figured out, certain about everything. When the fact is, I know somehow deep inside of me, I'm still lost, still ignoring some obvious signs which point to my insecurities and uncertainties.

Something to figure out....

Life in technicolor ba

I did what I had to do. Or else I'll be lying to him and to myself.
I gave my solid reasons, and if my heart's just not in it, why should I carry on?
It hurts hearing his bitter words, but Im staying strong and wont let 'em bring me down.
At least now I know I made the right decision.
Time is so short and Im pretty sure there must be something more for me out there.
Im keeping my head up high *cheers everyone*
:D

??????

Control freak or not.... I dont know whats wrong of being thoughtful.... Is it just me that think too much about others, or is it normal to include ur other half in wutever u are doing...or am i just another FREAK??? sometimes I dont know what to do..why is it thinking about others seems so bad..I would feel good at first, then feel soo awfully shitty the next time when someone point it out that it is not a wise move!!!

Really, what do you want??!!!!
Tell me, because it seems like im such an idiot now!!

Strangest thing was waiting for that bell to ring.

Hold on to it while you still can.
Dont let go.
Coz once you do, you'll miss it.
And you'll realize that you've been running in circles after all this while.

Aihh...I've been missing you a lot lately.
I wish that one day you would look my way.
Just a simple hello would put a smile on my face.
Yes it would.

Now Im just afraid to let someone new in.
Afraid that somehow I might, again, fall into that "trap" everyone's been bragging about.
It sucks to be me right now.
I know nobody said it was easy, but no one ever said it was this hard.

So the thing is, what am I supposed to hold on to now?
Could you tell me something worth fighting for?
Coz I'm completely blank at this moment...
Somehow I feel so alone..

Lais.

I'm Amazed

I can be difficult at times... AS for now, all the time. Unpredictable mood swings - im sick of blaming it on PMS! I hate to admit it that I have been rather mean and irrational. To be the person taking them, and just put up with moody me, takes some kind of patience. It can't be just any guy. I know, that doesn't give me the right to treat you that way. You have to admit, that's not all to me there is. I mean, I am NOT the moody girl all through the time when we are together. There are more to me....more pleasant side of me.

I'm amaze and thankful that you are still here, accepting me at being the ugliest i can be.
And I love you for that...

I'm sorry.

"The Bubble"

Was looking through some pictures of some people that I care dearly. I miss all of them n those old days when they were basically there day n night whenever I need someone to pick me up when my dreams were crushed, or just to share a silly joke with me. whenever I needed to see them all I had to do was just wait at the famous "tangga kejayaan" or locker area and there they were,waiting for me. It's odd, how back then I couldn't wait to step out of the bubble, and hoping time can just pass abit faster. Eager to see what lies ahead for me out here. Is not that I dont like it "here", it's just that it feels different. I guess it took me 4 years to realise, its them who make me feel complete. It sucks when they are not actually convinced that I care n they matter, when the truth is I will do anything for them. Since im far away, there's nothing much I can do,can't I?

But sometimes I just wish, its not a one way street. I wish I wasnt the only who needs to show the effort of keeping them close. And i also wish they wont come to me ONLY when trouble strikes them. Yes, I will still be here for u if trouble is ur current friend. but, it would be nice to just want me because you just want me. because you are thinking of me dearly.

I love you guys. All of you. I know, this is part of growing up. Part of life outside the "bubble". I get it. ..

Lost

Just because I'm losing
Doesn't mean I'm lost
Doesn't mean I'll stop
Doesn't mean I will cross

Just because I'm hurting
Doesn't mean I'm hurt
Doesn't mean I didn't get what I deserve
No better no worse

I just got lost
Every river that I've tried to cross
And every door I ever tried was locked
Ooh and I'm just waiting for the shine wears off

You might be a big fish
In a little pond
Doesn't mean you've won
Cause along may come
A bigger one
And you'll be lost

Every river that you tried to cross
Every gun you ever held went off
Ooh and I'm just wanting till the firing starts
Ooh and I'm just waiting till the shine wears off

Ooh and I'm just waiting till the shine wears off
Ooh and I'm just waiting till the shine wears off

xoxo
love u peeps always
see ya one thing for sure "dont wanna be ya"

It's A Cycle and I'm Miss Sensitive...

I know It's just how life goes...You have to deal with changes... I know everything takes time..I know you can't run away from the cycle of life...but it sucks to actually watch it happening and feeling helpless because you can't do anything about it. MAybe it's not big of a deal for some people, but me being the sensitive one feels like, if it's not big, at least it is a deal to me. It just feels weird in some ways.... Like for the first time it seems like I dont know them...that actually makes me feel that all these times I don't really belong there...

Maybe I'm just being overly sensitive about it... Maybe.... (due to the unstable hormones)
I know things will get better with time... I hope so...Things are all good at least that's how I want them to be...

Just giving it some time...

Besides facebooking...

Ok it's been a while.... been busy guys, sorry :)
So as u know, summer holidays is about to end, and Im going back to Brissy soon.
What have I been doing for the past 2+months here? Here's the list:

1. I did 1 subject in HELP uni. Just finished the final exam yesterday. Well I admit I didnt study at all for the paper. I barely went to classes. So don't ask me how was it. It's official I cant study here, too much distractions!

2. Keeping myself fit (konon la) by going to the gym.

3. Futsal every week.

4. Netball twice a week.

5. Zuwairi :)

6. Darus/AC almost everyday.

7. Shopped a lot!

8. Tried something new in Bangsar. hehe quiet Zuls!

9. A bit of everything here and there.

10. And 1 more thing, Im going to Langkawi this Wed, with a few friends. Just a few days getaway from Subang before I leave. Hope it'll be fun!


Love,
Laili.

Another New Year Another Beginning

My 2009... For starters (and which I feel is the BEST thing ever for now) NO MORE LDR for me in 2009 which is GREAT!!! Now I can share my days and mood swings closer to My Zekree... ( I bet Jerry,Ika, Tasia,Laili,Anas n G now be less bothered by me telling them how much I wish Zek was in Brisbane, I miss him..etc..huhuhuhu)

Mmm..I hope this year I will be able to do more travelling. Places Must TRY to go this year :-

1)Melbourne
2)Sydney
3)New Zealand
4) Cool places in Queensland

All in all..I hope 2009 will be better than 2008..hope I'll learn more about life... n try to be the best person I can be to myself, my family, my Zekree, my friends....

Here I come 2009... Watch out! :P

Just Crapping

I'm so happy because gossip girl is back!!! And yeah, Chuck is still the pain in the ass but wtv! he is still the one that Im in love with.lol...Peeps watch it! Its only 40mins of your precious time. Ok this week episode, hrmmm...quite sad but you know GG, theres always ups and downs like any other tv series.
Going back to KL tommorow morning. Well I'll be arriving arnd 3ish KL time. (sigh). "KL HERE I COME!"
okla Im super tired and totally sleepy. hehehe...
nite nite!

see ya but one thing for sure dont wanna be ya
xoxo
take care

Conclusion of He's Just Not That Into You.

Done, 做完, हो गया, sudah. I have finished reading the book last night. Seriously everthing do make sense once you have the clue. And to know what's the clue, you girls need to read THAT book!. I can bet you, after reading it, your perspective towards finding the ONE will be much much better. Im not saying that you dont have good taste in men or anything, the book its not about that actually. Its about how guys treating you like as if you dont deserve better. Excuses that they give to you,just to get away easily. So yeah want to know more do buy and read it.

I bet you all must think Im against men or something. The answer is NO. Im still straight and still in love with my beloved boyfriend Ed Westwick Its just when I read the book, its no fair for the girls out there. I mean girls are just too fragile creatures and dont deserve to be treated as if they are not important to the guys that they date. Why cant guys be honest about their feelings and why do they still pretend as if they care if the fact they dont?! Its just weird! Dont make things seem so complicated when it is not.

Like women, we just say it out loud when we dont like it. We make it easier for you (men) to understand us (women). We dont go around the bush to explain some simple thing. For example you (men) dont flirt with us (women) if you dont have any feelings or what so ever towards us (women). Simple as that. Another thing, dont give false hope if you already know that theres no hope. I must say thats totally stupid and selfish of you to do that kinda stuff. (sigh) Ok so thats about it. Im done lecturing!!!

good bye for now

see ya one thing for sure dont wanna be ya!

take care

xoxo

He's Just Not That Into You

Lets fill you guys with my pathetic life. Its not that bad actually but I'm just exaggerating it. hehehe...Ok so I decided to go to the city today to buy the book that I always wanted "He's Just Not That Into You". The unbelievable thing is I actually went out although it was raining. I dont go out when its raining. That is just the thing I wouldn't do because I hate getting wet and its depressing. Call me princess or anything but I'm just being me. So yeah, I bought the book at last. I cant wait to start reading it. The voice in my head keeps on saying "come on, dont waste time! Let's just start reading it". Then I started to flip on the first page of the book and cant stop reading it till now. Everything that Greg wrote was superb. He tells us about how guys react, feel and etc. Its amazing he actually admit that "guys are not complicated but they tend to act complicated because they want the girls to perceived them that way". How pathetic is that?! The best part is I only read half the book and now most of the questions I have in my head its already been filled. Coolness!!! Seriously girls, buy the book and trust me on this. And if you curious with your relationship, trust Greg Behrendt because he has the answer to it.

Everything just make sense after reading the book although Im only half way through. I read the other book called "Its Just a Date". I loved it! Greg's book are so amazing!!! So peeps, I mean girls do buy his books.

see ya one thing for sure dont wanna be ya

take care

xoxo

2009

It's 2009. A new year and hopefully a new me. hmmm nah...Im just the same. 2008 had been a pretty smooth year for me. I was single and living the life. Enjoyed every second of it. But hopefully 2009 will be better year for all of us. Firstly, if I get to go to Manchester in Aug, for a student exchange program, then I'll say in advance that this year will be the most awesome year EVER! yeap yeap! I just got an email from UQ saying that they approved my application, all I have to do is wait for the approval from Uni of Manchester itself *fingers crossed*.

ok gtg now, will update soon promise!
Toodles~

New Year