Monday ?!

haiyo!Midsem this sat! Stress ooo... Four freaking topics in four days?! hrrmmm...I guess not much time.Stop facebooking, msning and wtv! Cant think of anything at the moment. It's freaking cold now and I can't stop eating.(babs!)
Ok time to go now.Since there's nothing much to write...

bye bye
take care
see ya "one thing for sure dont wanna be ya"
xoxo

There goes my weekend...

Guess what peeps?! I joined the QSC thingy and I actually won something. I won gold medal for netball(very funny,I know) Oh well, it was more of my teammates efforts. without them,I would have lost. (I totally suck at sports! seriously) I would like to thank J,Z,A,D,B & S for everything. It was fun but I guess that will be the first and the last time for me to be part of it. Prefer staying outside the court/field. Just let me cheer for you peeps. I'm better at that because it's more relaxing and fun thing to do. Overall we did okay .(hehehe...=D) much better than being the last.(wink,wink). Ok enough said here. Got to get going peeps because I have a life!(lol)

bye
see ya
one thing for sure dont wanna be ya!
take care
xoxo

Love & Hate

LOVE
There's lot of things to love in my world. My family, friends, my bfie(which I dont need to tell), bags, shoes, clothes and... oh gosh! Can't list them all. I obviously don't do sports but I love to dance. Dancing is what I like the most. When I dance, I can be who ever I want. I love to be me although I can be super annoying and bitchie at times. I have to agree that I am abit pickie in terms of everything. I do love to make new friends but I'm just not good at it. People tend to think I'm stuck-up(pssstt...I get that all the time) =p So nothing to be emo at. Well being me is not easy, Sometimes I'm just too tired of just being me.(I bet you dont get me). And I still don't know why. I guess only my family and friends that knows me well can "tahan" me. I can be the pain in the ass... hehehe Oh well, that's ME!
Thanks to these peeps and I love you peeps the most:- P,M,A,T,D,A,J,L,Z,E,A,G,Z,N,M,N,L,S,R,I,J,I, F& S.

HATE
Hate,hate, hate... Let me think?! I hate trying new things because I'm just too scared of failing. That's the main reason why I always stick to what I'm used to. I 100% hate cheater, sweet-talker, playboy, faker and can't list them all at one go.I hate reptiles and not really a big fan of animals. It's hard for me to hate people but once I hate you, that's it!(jk as long as you apologize, I'm alrite) hrrmmm... There's not much to hate actually. As long I dont get in people's way and vice versa, I'm totally fine!!!

Bye and I'm out of here.
take care
see ya and one thing for sure don't wanna be ya!
xoxo

Got it all wrong

I thought it was the last search. Thought it felt right. I guess at the end of the day it comes to me.. Maybe, its just me. Desperately wanted and hoping to find the one who adores me, who wants to be part of my life as much as I want to be part of theirs. But the thing I tend to forget that, not everyone is like me. Or is it just karma getitng back at me? I Pushed away those who genuinely wants to be here, and now in return, the one I genuinely dont want to let go will be taken away from me?

But then again, It is not wrong to know what u want. I got carried away that I accepted the unacceptable, ignore the obvious signs of the contrast. Somehow, deep down I'm scared. Scared of what might have been, scared that I might dissapoint the hopes of others. Scared of what others might think of me.

What went wrong? Maybe its just not meant to be. I can't be in it alone. .I see it.. I think I know what's next...But im just scared to say it...n I Think so do u...

Something to figure out

You thought you have everything planned and going well on track. But the truth is, I don't know what I know anymore. I always thought If I have everything figured out, then everything will be fine. But then again, they were all myths that I made myself to believe. I think for once, I have to let time and fate decide the course of love and life. Go with the flow, let things happen. Without much force and pressure. For once, live it as it is. Feel it as it touches you. Savour it as it happens.

And yes, We dont know what is in for us in the future. I guess now I know what you were trying to tell me. I'm not perfect nor the one. I'm slowly to understand, pretending that things are the way I want it to be when they are clearly not, wont help.

Im still trying to learn and understand all these. Me, you, us... It's not a bad thing. I guess, it's just another part of my "self-discovery" thing to do. At this age, it's so naive of me to think that I have everything figured out, certain about everything. When the fact is, I know somehow deep inside of me, I'm still lost, still ignoring some obvious signs which point to my insecurities and uncertainties.

Something to figure out....