Something Serious..

Well, peeps...you are wrong when you think that ALL i can write about is the dramatic side of my life. At this instance, I would like to express my thoughts on something rather "serious".The political chaos back in Malaysia has everyone talking about politics. It rather has an impact on everyone including me. Growing up, politics never really interest me. As I see politics as superficial and selfish in soo many way, though I can't deny some aspects of politics are needed to get a country going. Since everyone has many opinions about it, so do I.

1) It is sad that things have to be UGLY first before people start caring about the things happening in the country.

2) Malaysia is not political mature yet to be very outspoken about the differences of parties like in the western world.As in Malaysia, they tend to prove who is WRONG n RIGHT rather than having dynamic solutions (the best solution) to better outcomes for the country. If you see Australia for example, the way they debate politically is waaayyy mature than the ministers in Malaysia do.

3) Politic IS corrupted by nature. No matter how good a leader is they will never run from telling A lie (even normal human being to tell lies at one point in their life! ) Therefore, no such thing as ZERO corruption to whoever believe that THEY are standing up for the righths of the people.

4) I'm not saying NO to a positive change for the country. I believe the opposition leader is a wise man, (hope can have better economic condition for Malaysia) but it seems rather sad that the country has to go through this kind of chaos all in the name of POLITIC just to prove their side of stories.

Now, everyone is wondering, anxiously waiting, what the future holds for Malaysia's Politic. All i'm hoping for is that Malaysia will continue to develop instead of falling back due to all this political mess. Whoever rule the country, hope they will keep in mind that its all about the people, not THEM!

#I hope I am making some sense.. LOL..as IM not the best person to talk about politics with, but yeah, at least those are what I have to say about it. =P

Understood

Growing up...I've always been told, "only go for those who love you more than you love them"...They believe by living up to this ideology you will never get hurt. Well, I used to think this a foolish thought. I'm a strong believer of treat others like you want to be treated. It applies to EVERYTHING in life. Applies to relationship as well. The reason why i never stand by the idea of only be with someone who loves u more than u love him is because, when you decide to give your love to someone, it is not a game of who gives more. You just give wutever you have.It suppose to be natural. Doesnt need reasons behind every act of love you do. Dont need to justify wut u need or not need to do. You just feel it. I never thought in relationship there would ever be an issue of who loves who more in a relationship, one thing means more to one person than the other. I thought we are in it together...arent we suppose to want the same thing?

Well, I guess I'm wrong...All those things do matter after all... Wake up Emilia Ilyana...Life,love and heartbreak are not fairytales..they are all real... It can either build you or break you..

Never like this

Not in the mood. Everything is coming to me all at once.. I wish I can control them but I cant. Everything just seems so wrong no matter what I do. Im stress, depress and just wish all of these would just goooo awaaayyyyy!!! Enough already.... Give me back my sanity and peace of mind. Tell me that Im at least doing something right.. anything. God! I miss ME... Havent feel good being myself lately..Wut's up with that? Where on earth is Emilia Ilyana? All i feel like doing is stay in bed till she gets back and being the normal happy thankful soul.



God, just hate it!

Something to laugh about !

I just discovered how deliciously tasteful Subway is. Ive only eaten subway like once and I didnt like it. Tapi tadi I tried again and wow it is not that bad after all. haha. U may think Im so kuno right now! I know! but wtv, it is soooo sedapppp. Next on my list: Craving for t-bone steak at 1001 Nights.

Pretty Awesome!

Before and After pic of My Big Giant Cookies.

This is the coolest thing I ever made in my entire life.Well I love it and I dont want to eat it but I know that I have too someday.(sigh)

I LOVE U MY BIG GIANT COOKIES!!!

p/s: see ya one thing for sure dont wanna be ya!

muahx

xoxo

Monday Blues

I couldnt sleep last night. I hate it. I hate when I can't sleep.. Obvious sign something was on my mind. People often tell me that I think alot...Well, I can't help it. I thought distance will make the heart grow fonder, not turn you into a bad partner. I never understand the term loving someone too much, but now I think I do. and guess what? It sucks! You are obsessed of doing the right things all the time till you ending up doing all the wrong things as a result. Is there anything to do with expectations? Its all about expectations huh? Affraid that you are not good enough, dont love him enough..etc.. Well, I dont have a clue about your past, so do you about mine. I dont know how they made you happy and loved you in the past. All I know, this is how I love you.. Perhaps, its the only way I know how to... I have my ways and I didnt know my ways would hurt you this bad. I hate being away from you and I hate it even more when we have to go through this when we are thousand miles away. I know it aint easy, but I'm trying..mmm..I thought you should know by now that all I meant to show you is love..nothing else..

I'm sorry...


-B-

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I know I should retreat. But do you feel me?
hugs O.O